Here we go again....
It actually seems to be quite stupid in retrospective.
I just spend two 120 hour weeks on my primary job as consultant....and now here I am - sitting in the Hotel Bar of a mediocre Moroccon hotel because I cannot let go of the though that I might one day become a professor.
The background story is as follows: I have always been drawn to the idea of becoming a professor. So when a friend asked me if I would agree on taking a teaching assignment in may in Morocco, I heapily said yes. I even am taking vacation for this, of course without my actual boss knowing about it (the teaching that is). So here I am, after my 5-hour stint on delivering a class on "International Business Strategy" to a class of MBA students.
And it didn´t really turn out to go as planned. Not the course...after some initial bumpiness (wich I hope only I felt) because I literally had zero time to prepare, the second session today went already quite smooth. No, it is because I still need more preparation during the day than anticipated. My friend was so nice as to provide me with a preset flow for the course, but understandingly I still have to prepare myself, do the reading on the case studies, think about examples etc. So the anticipated "free time" on the beach and strolling through casablanca actually is quite limited. But, I have never been to good at enjoying myself in foreign environments when I am there alone.
Could I have spent that time better? Recuperating from work, relaxing and making sure, my next assignment in the follow-on of the current case goes well? Of Course, but I somehow managed to convince myself that I need this experience to finally figure out, if Professor really is the way to go for me. If this is fun, and I suceed at being good at it, then the annswer should be yes. If not, well than I need to make new career plans....at the age of almost 33.
Yesterday I thus had a downer day, as I had mixed feelings about the session. I was not really sure, if that it is, or if that can be it and was curious to see, what is going to happen today.
Well, today, life is a bit nicer..or happier. I spent almost two hours walking on the beach, slept sufficiently and the 5 hours session went by as nothing. So today i would rather say, it might be a good career track.
Of course, there still is the question of money. Will I be able to make enough money as professor to provide my beloved ones, and myself, with the standard of living that I aspire? I am still not sure about it............the story, the longtime, neverending quest for an answer continues.
S.
I just spend two 120 hour weeks on my primary job as consultant....and now here I am - sitting in the Hotel Bar of a mediocre Moroccon hotel because I cannot let go of the though that I might one day become a professor.
The background story is as follows: I have always been drawn to the idea of becoming a professor. So when a friend asked me if I would agree on taking a teaching assignment in may in Morocco, I heapily said yes. I even am taking vacation for this, of course without my actual boss knowing about it (the teaching that is). So here I am, after my 5-hour stint on delivering a class on "International Business Strategy" to a class of MBA students.
And it didn´t really turn out to go as planned. Not the course...after some initial bumpiness (wich I hope only I felt) because I literally had zero time to prepare, the second session today went already quite smooth. No, it is because I still need more preparation during the day than anticipated. My friend was so nice as to provide me with a preset flow for the course, but understandingly I still have to prepare myself, do the reading on the case studies, think about examples etc. So the anticipated "free time" on the beach and strolling through casablanca actually is quite limited. But, I have never been to good at enjoying myself in foreign environments when I am there alone.
Could I have spent that time better? Recuperating from work, relaxing and making sure, my next assignment in the follow-on of the current case goes well? Of Course, but I somehow managed to convince myself that I need this experience to finally figure out, if Professor really is the way to go for me. If this is fun, and I suceed at being good at it, then the annswer should be yes. If not, well than I need to make new career plans....at the age of almost 33.
Yesterday I thus had a downer day, as I had mixed feelings about the session. I was not really sure, if that it is, or if that can be it and was curious to see, what is going to happen today.
Well, today, life is a bit nicer..or happier. I spent almost two hours walking on the beach, slept sufficiently and the 5 hours session went by as nothing. So today i would rather say, it might be a good career track.
Of course, there still is the question of money. Will I be able to make enough money as professor to provide my beloved ones, and myself, with the standard of living that I aspire? I am still not sure about it............the story, the longtime, neverending quest for an answer continues.
S.
posted by Stephan at Wednesday, May 23, 2007
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